twentyyyy.

sibs.

i could not have 2 better, opposite, protective, fun or perfect brothers.

they are my best friends & i honestly feel bad for anyone who doesn't have older brothers like them.

robert aaron hennefer.
[robbie, roberto, bobby, brother]
this boy is a genius & probably one of the best boys i've ever known.
he's 25, married his best friends cousin & is terrified yet eager about his baby girls coming in june.
the worst thing he did in high school was swear. he worked his way up to the highest position on his mission. he is now an honor student at BYU & getting ready for his new job in new york as a wall street businessman.  he is by farrrr the golden child.
 its actually SUPER annoying. whatever.  
he is also a know it all & every time i come home, we argue about grammar, games, songs, etc. we're reeeally competitive.
when we were kids, he was my protector. i slept with him every night. and even when he came home from the mish we'd have slumber parties if i watched a scary movie. i also gave him all the advice on how to win alyssa over cause before they were ever close to dating [he was in college, she was a sophomore & closer to my age than his] she told me she was going to marry my brother someday. lo and behold, here we are today.
so yeahh. you can consider me their matchmaker.  

they are impossible to get pictures of. that's why its so limited.


matthew russell hennefer.
[henny, shink, matty, brother]
this boy could make friends with anyone. he has a heart of gold through & through.
i used to hate him.
only within the last 2 years have we finally gained a strong bond with each other. he was always been the party boy. 
we'd fight. he'd kick me. often using my chubbiness against me. ruin my barbies [you do NOT mess with those]
and being the baby & only girl, i'd scream, tattle and pout until i got my way.
so he  hated me back. it was a never ending cycle for us. but after high school, we both grew up & now we're BEST friends. every time i'm up in slc, him or his friends blow my phone up to come play. love that. 
my favorite are his texts that say "if you _____ for me, then i'll buy you treats & other things"
 if i do him favors, he buys me just about anything. he is also extremely creative & talented. he makes music sample & beats to sell to various producers, one of which is his best friend. 
he's my favorite little hipster party boy. 
[he'd punch me if he saw that last statement]

 

i absolutely love my brothers. i think i'm one of the luckiest girls around.

they like me too. obvi. like this picture doesn't show it or anything.

-little.

one&nine.

song you love at this very moment.

good timing for this post. i'm o b s e s s e d  with this song. 

bicycle-memory tapes.

there is really nothing to say about this song.
once you listen, you'll understand.
especially once it gets to 3:22.

my advice is to blast it. 
possibly turn some black lights on.
you don't don't have those at hand? weird.
its sorta feels like being on some kind of drug trip.
but without the guilt nor the bishops interview.
yayy for sobriety! 

-little.

one8.

seeing as i love la musica & i have a different song stuck in my head erra day,
 i'm going to share the love every once in a while.

habit you wish you didn't have.

burps. given, mine are more like little gasps rather than actual belches, but stilll. i feel so unladylike afterwards. i say sorry & excuse me after every one of them, which ends up just bugging me more cause i do it so often. i think the fact that clay laughs after each one of them makes me think its some kind of adorable quirk in his eyes--but really I NEED TO STOP.

hair fiddling. i don't know how to put a name to this specific habit, but i always always push my hair back at the roots. to like switch up the part or something, i don't know. buuut i do it alll the time, many a picture has documented it when i am unaware. someone was asking about me once & explained me as the "girl who always pushes her hair back". its a joke.

asking unanswerable questions. this is especially evident when i'll be watching tv with people & we'll flip it to a new show. then i'll ask everyone the who, what, where, when & whys. as if they knew anymore than i did. it annoys the heck out of me when i catch myself doing it.

spending. the more money i have, the more i spend. i don't even spend a lot at once on something great, i just nickel & dime myself to poverty every paycheck. i wish i were responsible & saved it.

-little.

seventeeeen.

first things first, this song is splendid. betcha couldn't guess who sent it to me.

annnd back to my neglected blog challenge:


5 things you are looking forward to in 2011.

let's do this in chronological order, shall we?

3 year anniversary.

that's coming up pretty quickly here. april 16th, to be exact.
in fact, today is our 34 month anniverary.

we've had our fair share of rocky moments. one of which we're still going through currently
 [i have to earn the title of girlfriend again hahahah. he keeps me in check. adorable]

wish i could say it was his fault.. but it hardly ever is. anyway. he's the one thing i can always rely on. i know i drive him crazy, make him sad & give him no reason to be mine at times, but i also know he'll always be there. even if we don't end up together in the long run, he has taught me how to genuinely love a person through thick & thin.

we just picked up the camera & took this. 

without planning, we'd both pulled the ugliest faces around. 

so, its a keeper :)

 finishing dixie with the 4 cutest girls around.

 i love st. george. its small,  there is no forever 21 and its 300 miles away from everyone, but i feel so happy & blessed living here. especially cause i walk to class in dresses in february with the sun melting away all stress & the birds chirping a chipper little spring song. remember how i love the simple things? sometimes when the girls and i drive to dinner or the grocery store, blasting the ping pong song and she's so high- i just stop and look around at them and realize how much i LOVE them and i'm so grateful for them. they've become such a big part of my life. i'm going to miss living with them so very much. they are lovely girls & you are lucky if you know them. even more lucky if you get to marry one :)

9 + jess. 

summmmmmer.  

pretty sure this explains itself.

this summer might suck a bit because derek won't be living in utah due to work. but between twilight concerts, the hot sun & 100% dress weather there is no way i won't be happy as can be.

i must sound redundantly obsessive about these dresses, but i assure you, its a legitimate euphoric feeling i have when i get to wear them.
its the biggest reason i love summer & hate winter. 

plus, the less clothes the better, right?

 nannying.

everyday with my babies once again :)

 especially now that anne brady is talking up a storm and old enough to go to the pool & other fun adventures. not to mention anne carson, who is not only the best employer [$50 gift certificates to f21 just because], but she has become such a good friend. she knows everything about myself & my family and she has the greatest perspective seeing as she's young and a mother as well.

:)

becoming an A U N T!

haven't let this one out of the bag yet [i was reprimanded for telling the whole world via fbook that my brother & his wife were having twins before my grandparents could find out :/ ] but the little identical twins are G I R L S!! they will be dark, curly headed little beauties with big pretty eyes. everyone says personality wise, they're gonna be just like me :) because i WILL teach them each how to be a wild child like myself. duhhh. adorable, demanding, sweet yet feisty little beings they shall be.

my handsome brother & his gorgeous wife :)

 living with 2 of my very best friends.

they say i'm trouble.
 but put me with gin & jas? uh. oh. that is the joke among us. 3 little rapscallions.
guarantee we will be raising hell on a daily basis.
i couldn't be more excited. janey & i have been planning this for years,
then suddenly jasmine came into the picture and it was a perfect fit!
and now we'll be living in a cute little condo all to ourselves.
i'm kinda concerned provo/orem will vex me, or at least some of the citizens.
just this weekend i was cut off by a stupid muscle man in a huge truck. i loathed him.
hopefully guys like that will be a minority. probably not.
just another reason for my forte to be displayed & to cause a rumpus :)

-little.

month of LOVE.

i have had a very lovely & busy week so i haven't been able to blog at alll.

which i've heard quite an earful about from my dutiful readers.

 whom i ADORE for even noticing my absence from the cyber world.

first of all. everyone is getting engaged. this really is a month of love. where spirits and twitterpations are accelerated & people are ready to commit. i love seeing that, but i feel so weird that its all girls i've grown up with. already 11 girls my age are engaged or married. ELEVEN!! on one hand, it makes me want to be a cute little housewife but on the other, i know i don't want to get married until i'm 24, mayyyybe 23. i'm not opposed to early marriages, but once i'm married, it will be in the temple FOREVER. annnd that's a long time.
 so i'm good without having all those responsibilities for a lil while longer. 

but congratulations to all of those who are ready!!

i lovelovelove this picture. this is my temple of choice for marriage.

because its a castle & i believe entering such a covenant is a true sign of the highest royalty.

2nd. i had to say goodbye to mister joust for 2 years as he travels to mexico for a mish. he will be much missed by all the girls in number 9. especially his deep, infectious laugh & straight up weird mannerisms. ohhh & though i've known him..what, 4 months? he decided to give ME his 80 gig ipod. no idea why. but i love him for it :)

love jousty.

numba 9 alwaysss.

thirrrrdly. i love home. i love my parents. my pregnant sister. my cozy house. my know-it-all brother. my stoner bro. my ollie girl. my handsome [non] boyfriend.
 prov-my new 2nd home cause D lives there now. my pretty best friend. 

i love being among all these people & places. it def made my weekend.

fammmm game night. 

the biggest reason i come home so often.

its the littleness. this is the only way i can be eye level.
 i look like a tarrrd. he's cute.






-h.

16.

post a picture from your childhood.

let me begin this with a disclaimer. these pictures happen to be the only ones i have down here in st. george. by chance [quite purposefully, actually] they are somewhat acceptable ones of myself. buuut really, i was heinous. my grandma- she forgets how to bite her tongue at times- told my mother that i was the homeliest child she'd ever seen when i was born.

 it wasn't a lie, either.

i looked like a mole. a possessed, stroke stricken mole. but i like that. 

at least i appreciate what i have now. that's an upside.

does this not make you happy? schoooool lunch. i was a regular. i had a tab.

i was on first name basis with the lunch ladies. 

little princessss :)  my mother made this whole costume for me and i wore it regularly.
oh and see that perm? it was hellll.

robbie. hay. matthew. 

we were one good looking bunch, right? 

especially in our prime at 7am with our beet red lips.

such a curse.

hahahahah look at me pose!

i just love that even then i still had my dress steeeez.

but my mama loves this. 

she says i've been breaking boys' necks since i was a little girl.

which is quite ironic considering the picture you will see below.

THIS WAS EPITOME OF MY CHILDHOOD.
hahahahhahaha
those ones above were my good years in which i am more than happy to share.
but THIS. this my friends, was what all my uintah friends remember.
chubby. frizzy hair. gap in teeth. greeeat style.
this is what i dealt with from 2nd to 9th grade.
i used to loathe those years, but i honestly love them to pieces now.
its part of the reason jasmine and i bonded so quickly.
we lived those dreadful years side by side.
 watching the pretty girls get the boys' attention all the time
while we sat rolling grapes in mud & wearing paper claws to chase people with.
or in my case, playing barbies [by myself] until i was 15. yes. its true.

at least i now know that being content 
with yourself is far better than being pretty to others.








-little

one.five

if stranded on an island, what 10 items & what 1 person would you bring?

not to be negative or anything..but i strongly dislike this question. very over done. 

anyway,  i had to eenie-meenie-miney-moe the whole "who" part.
i'm surrounded by hilarious & entertaining people so its reeeally hard to choose.
hence the very child like way to make such an important decison.
buut anyway. clay boy won. suprised?
that's good though cause he'd be like a fire maker & blanket
& food catcher & comic relief all jumbled together.
 4 in 1!!!

10 items would be:

 "stranded on an island for dummies". we'd go far with such a book.
bankie the baby blanket. for a pillow, poncho, blanket, cuddle bud, etc.
tanning oil. so i could be tan.
sun block. so i could stop being tan when it started burning.
a water purifier. cause my mom always scares me about how fast i'd die without it.
lots of journals. so i could entertain us with my clever stories.
maybe some dresses. i'd be naked the whole time. duh. but just in case we had company.
straws. for the coconut milk, easy access.
johnson & johnson's bedtime lotion. cause i love everything about that stuff.
tampons. cause hell no would i use a makeshift item for such a job.

 

but don't worry. with the help of our dummies book, derek would build this. its a fortress.  

and it'd be really pretty. buuut with all that alone time,

 we'd probably be up to no good. 

so we'd get married so that all was well.

then life would be reeeally fun.

:)

and we'd live a very happy life in our secluded little world. 

  

and just in case we got bugged with each other

[it is in the high percentile that we would]

we'd make friends with Speckle the seal & all his fish friends.  

and in case we got REALLY annoyed, i'd make derek build me this bridge to Little's island so i could get away from him.

...then i'd come back after 9 minutes cause i'd get bored. you know, how it usually goes.

well i sure just got carried away.
maybe this question isn't so stupid after all.





-h.

4teeen.

favorite quote:

kayyy well this will be difficult. i love quotes. i have books full of them. 

i use them to make a point or to make others feel better.

so instead of just one, i'll do a top 5.

even that won't begin to cover all the ones i love though.

..

i'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure.

 i make mistakes, i'm out of control and at times hard to handle.

 but if you can't handle me at my worst, 

you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

-marilyn monroe.

for obvious reasons, this one hits home. i almost guarantee that there is no one as impatient, crazy & obnoxious as myself. but that just makes it all the better to find someone who wants that, from insecurities to mistakes, just all of it to themselves.  it also helps to weed out those people in life who don't uplift you but rather try to break you down.

..

life is short, break the rules. forgive quickly.

 kiss slowly. love truly. laugh uncontrollably

and never regret anything that makes you smile.

-mark twain

i love this one. i firmly believe life should be happy& simple. so much joy can be brought by a laugh or a hug. 

..

if you want to be happy, be.

-leo tolstoy

once again, simplicity is key. NO ONE can make you happy but yourself & your own mindset.

..

i believe that laughing is the best calorie burner.

i believe in kissing, kissing a lot.

i believe in being strong when everything 

seems to be going wrong.

i believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls.

i believe that tomorrow is another day

and i believe in miracles.

-audrey hepburn

the bolded statement IS the truest statement ever. it really doesn't matter what you look like, in the end, its your personality & disposition that a person falls in love or falls in hate with. 

..

i believe everything happens for a reason.

 people change so you that you can learn to let go.

things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right,

you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,

and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

-marilyn monroe.

there are hundreds of crazy, terrible & disappointing parts in my life. varying from horrible regret to being able to laugh it off. but each experience has changed my mind in a different way. whether it opens up a new world or closes the door to another. i strongly believe that our own mistakes are our best teachers.

-h.

thirteeen.

contents of the purse.

you see, i hate purses. i just don't like carrying stuff.

when we go places, i give my wallet, keys, phone & camera to derek

 to hold 1 in each of his 4 pockets. 

he's a doll for allowing that. cause that's reeeally annoying come to think of it.

anywho, if i'm going to work or school, i like that my bag can hold every single thing that i might possibly need for those few hours in life, but its just the holding of bulky items that i dislike. that being said, here is a look into my bag for a day.

first off. my bag CAN hold all this, its just folded in half, so its quite an optical illusion.

lets start at the top.

 laptop & case:

 at work with me everyday. i got that case for 5 dollars. what a steal.

keys: 

self explanatory. has a ribbon so i don't lose it. it comes in handy d a i l y.

composition notebook: 

my undercover journal. best for class when i'm bored.

dixie planner:

lifesaver. i'm obsessed with planners. to-do lists. any grandmotherly list really.

bodysprays & perfumes: 

of courrrrse. i always gotta smell gooood.

headband & earrings:

in case i need some change during the day.

leopard mirror:

derek's cute mama got this for me last easter. love it.

nail polishes:

mint green & dark gray. current nail & toe polish of the week. prob for the year. i love them.

comb:

absolutely necessary. long hair = no volume. not okay.

hairspray:

even more necessary. goes with the whole no volume thing.

makeup:

just bronzer & eye shadows in case of emergency.

lip glass, gloss & sticks: 

duhhh. have ya met me? all in shades of pink, of course.

sunnies:

nordy's knows how to make em best.

and there ya have it.

-little.